what's luck got to do with it

.parents.snow. weightloss. new me?

well, that's a mouthful. and a half.

here i am. turning 24, on the eve of my first anniversary of being married to my husband sean.

our 8 month old son, Lucas, crashing and banging shapes on the floor. the snow falling in fluffy white innocence outside my livingroom window. me, contemplating my life, my little world inside my little yellow house. wanting desperately to write like i used to. need to, again.

wondering how my life got to this point. my new perspective being, accept what i have and work to make it great. the love of my life trying everyday to make me happy and his son happy. he's succeeding, even if i don't tell him everyday. 

i started a new revolutionary weight-loss supplement today. i weigh in at post-baby 205pds. the biggest i've ever been in my life to date. my goal weight is 140pds. i'm going to try my hardest, the hardest i've ever tried at anything in my life to lose this weight and feel better about myself and be happy. really, honestly happy.

here goes. wish me luck.

.new beginning.

. i thought i'd take a shot at a new me, new blog, new everything.

.my life has dramatically changed over the past couple months. such monumental events have taken place so fast i haven't really had any time to wrap my head around them.

.the ring on my finger, this life inside of me, poking around, figuring out his surroundings. my black kitten softly purring beside me as i type this. i've finally created a life of my own, a life that i dreamt about for so many discouraging teenage years. we're about to buy a house and prepare for this new life that's about to take us to a whole new connection of love and family. i'm not sure i'm ready, but when are you really ever ready for something new and unknown. all i can do is keep treading water and hope that i can keep my head from sinking beneath. there's still many things i still want to accomplish, i know that. i just have to take my time now and actually make a plan instead of plunging in headfirst in my immature spontaneity (my old self, i think). 

.well here's to something new.